Plan B

  For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
                           Jeremiah 29:11

 The plan I had for my life was not the final plan.  I am learning a new normal and reluctantly saying goodbye to the dreams I once had.  I have trained myself in the past few months to not look at all that will not be realized and all that never was, because sometimes the reality is too overwhelming.  Instead, I focus on the moment to moment tasks of what must be done in order to survive on this new strange planet.  This is a place I never wanted to be; would have never chosen, but here I am.  And here I will survive.

My perspective has changed so much in the last few months.  What was "bad" before is merely laughable through these new eyes.  What was "impossible" before has now become just an obstacle.  At the end of the day, most of life's trials can be shelved until the next day.  Everything looks different in the light of morning.

I am surviving, and right now that is all I'm really attempting.  I am hopeful that one day, my life will be about more than survival.  I have all of the same dreams I always have had, but they are framed differently now.  Perhaps one day some of those dreams will be realized. Perhaps not.  I believe that the Lord has not brought me to this point to leave me.  He is here.  His plans for me are real and they are wonderful.